Remembering Papa 2018
Nov-21, 2018, we remember our beloved Papa and Angkong.
Papa's 2nd Anniversary at the Queen Mary
Queen Mary, Long Beach, California Nov-18, 2018
I AM SORRY MY DEAREST PAPA
My dearest Papa,
Words alone is not enough to express how much I appreciate what you have done to me and my family. I am so sorry for ignoring your unconditional love. I did not realize back then until the last few days of your life. I even said some unnecessary hurtful words to you that I now regret. I don't need to mention what I said to you but I believe you know what it was. I realized it's too late but I want to express my utmost apology to you. I am so sorry Pa. That was very childish of me. I know whatever you did was for my best interest. I love you and I miss you so much, please forgive me. I love you both Pa and Ma.
My Letter to Papa
Your whole life, you gave me so much. Yet at the end of your life, I cannot give you even a fraction of I should have. I owe it to you Dear Papa that I should say some of the things I feel like I should have said when you were still with me. Though I have tried to assure myself over the years that you already know by now.
I'm sorry for the things that I've done that have been a disappointmentt for you. Over the years, I have NOT hear you say a word about it, yet I knew you know that I know. And you kept your silence to avoid hurting me.
I'm sorry for the terrible things I ever said to you to show my resentment. I know you only meant well.
I'm sorry I never told you "I love you" enough.
I miss you Papa. More than words can express --- somehow, somewhere I think you know that too. Thank you for being my father. I love you Papa.
--- Nin Nin 11/18/18